[ well. it's a step in the right direction. at least diluc doesn't look like he's about to set kaeya on fire.
again. ]
I don't..
[ he starts, but for all diluc thinks of his silver tongue, it's failing kaeya, now. his sharp wit and quick words are usually tied up with his lies, but uncomfortable honesty like this.. it doesn't come to him easily. he doesn't know what to say. he doesn't know what to do. he can't tell diluc the full, bare truth.
he can't still him how much he loves him. how he's always loved him, in every way that someone can love a person. the fear of outright rejection is far too strong, and kaeya protects himself instead in icy layers, keeping his tender, sentimental heart protected, not unlike diluc himself does. they have so much more in common than either of them would want to believe. kaeya exhales hard.
and then he's tugging on diluc's wrists, yanking him closer, tilting his head to crush their mouths together again. maybe it's too much, maybe diluc will haul off and punch him in the teeth, but words are failing him, and kaeya prefers instead to speak with his body. things were easier, simpler when they were kissing, and he hopes against hope that somehow, perhaps, what he's feeling will come through this way instead. ]
no subject
again. ]
I don't..
[ he starts, but for all diluc thinks of his silver tongue, it's failing kaeya, now. his sharp wit and quick words are usually tied up with his lies, but uncomfortable honesty like this.. it doesn't come to him easily. he doesn't know what to say. he doesn't know what to do. he can't tell diluc the full, bare truth.
he can't still him how much he loves him. how he's always loved him, in every way that someone can love a person. the fear of outright rejection is far too strong, and kaeya protects himself instead in icy layers, keeping his tender, sentimental heart protected, not unlike diluc himself does. they have so much more in common than either of them would want to believe. kaeya exhales hard.
and then he's tugging on diluc's wrists, yanking him closer, tilting his head to crush their mouths together again. maybe it's too much, maybe diluc will haul off and punch him in the teeth, but words are failing him, and kaeya prefers instead to speak with his body. things were easier, simpler when they were kissing, and he hopes against hope that somehow, perhaps, what he's feeling will come through this way instead. ]